What's the Point?

What exactly is the point?  I have come to the conclusion that there is no point.  It is a certainty that there will ALWAYS be someone faster than me and younger than me and better looking than me.  Someone who can run farther and faster and complete this or any other goal/task quicker and/or better.  I got bothered yesterday because I had a bad run in a race.  So I finished some three or four minutes slower than I intended to... so what.

A friend of mine from church also ran yesterday.  He ran the half marathon.  He ran it super fast (from my perspective).  I checked the results today.  He ran 1:31.  That is under 7 minute miles for 13.1 miles.  To me, that is SMOKIN'.  I heard through the grapevine that he was not happy with his performance.  So, here is my point.  ENOUGH WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH.

Fast will never be fast enough.  Good will never be good enough.  Great will never be great enough.  I just know it.  So, what's the point?  I have a goal or three or twelve.  I will achieve many of them, but who cares?  If and when I finish this 50 in 50 in 50 thing that I am doing right now, who will care?  Will anybody ask me how fast I ran?  Will anybody ever ask me if I placed first in my age group or what place did I come in overall?  Doubtful.

To that point... I graduated from dental school in 1996.  In 20 years, I have never had anybody ask me where I graduated in my class.  Was I the top student?  Was I in the middle somewhere?  Or does D stand for doctor?  You know what they call the guy who graduated last in my class in dental school???  .... Doctor!!  That's right.  They call him doctor.

I certainly have my own reasons for doing these races.  I am super competitive... if you have not figured that out yet.  I need goals.  I mentioned that before.  I feel the need to stay fit and trim.  I do not do well with weight.  Also, my Mii character needs to stay "normal" sized.  Poor guy.  BTW... Since August, when I went with my wife and daughter to Nicaragua, I have lost 31 pounds.  I was 216 lbs and I weighed Saturday 185 lbs.  I am now a size L, tapered shirt and wear a size 31 waisted pant.  Even they have a little room.  I have lost my booty and am losing my quads.  I wonder if I will force myself to start lifting weights again???

I will certainly continue my quest, but I am not so sure what all of my goals are at the moment.  Will I go from 1:49 to 1:47 to 1:45 to 1:40 to 1:30?  Think they will ask me to run on the US Olympic Half-Marathon team?  LOL.  Is it worth all of the training to get to run faster and faster and faster?  I dunno.  I am sure I will differently about it over a period of time.  Right now, I am struggling wondering where does it end, when will it ever be enough and what difference does it make?

Just the thought for the day.  Thanks for "listening".